This is what ive done

My life turns around from good to bad
Everything I've done drives you all mad
I ask for a knife you handed it to me
I was insecure and am happily in peace
I do this thing to show me that you care
I didn't think that you could ever bare
But this is what I did to gain your attention
I had one cut just to let you understand
I had two cuts just on the left hand
I had three cuts to make it bleed enough
I had four cuts just to make me laugh
I had five cuts now I feel drowsy
I had six cuts everything looks hazy
I add one more cut to show my strength
I add another cut to show you the length
I had nine cuts just to make me feel tough
I swear this is the last one as I will never give up
I add a few more as I don't think I'm done
I add one more slash and Now I see you run
Both of my hands have blood dripping down
Now I don't even know what I'm doing anymore
I see you pick up the phone to make a call
But its too late now as I am gone
So now that is how I feel
when you have lost it all